TW: Suicide This fall will be the 30th anniversary of the lowest point in my life. I had taken care of details in my apartment and went to the Niagara Power Vista intent of ending my painful life. I sat in my car for the longest time with a line from a hymn running through my mind. In time I drove home ashamed. Since then, God has blessed me in so many ways. The strap will be a constant reminder of that unconditional love that spared my life.